i'm heartbroken tonight. tomorrow is the last day on the lease for the bookstore. even though the store is closed already i still have a key to the place on my keyring. i still have a few last minute things (2 pictures of wintson-the black dog) on the walls yet to get.
tomorrow i load the last of my stuff and leave my key behind. i'm looking forward to a few weeks of rest and recovery but i dread the emotions to come. i cry at the drop of a hat these days and that's to be expected, i guess.
i dread the inevitable "you'll find something better" comments on my social media posts because i don't want to hear it. why is it so damn hard for people just say, "i'm sorry. this sucks!"? there will never be anything "better" than owning my own bookstore. I may indeed find a great, fulfilling job but it sure as hell won't be "better!"
i can't believe everything got done. when i got there yesterday morning i didn't think there was any possible way. 4 loads yesterday and 3 loads today and it's all but in the books (no pun intended).
it's almost 10:00 pm and i'm headed to bed -about 3 hours earlier than normal. i just need a little rest to face tomorrow.
grace and peace
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