today is july 1. half the year is gone. i wish i could say that i am 6 months closer to well or that this first half of the year has been better than the last but none of that is true. yes, i love my job but i am still anxious all the time. i'm still afraid all the time. i still feel like someone else all the time. i don't even know what being amy would feel like anymore.
it's exhausting to always have to try so hard just to function. it's amazing to me the things i neglect that i NEVER would have pre-flood. i just don't always care about sheets on the bed or clean clothes or food to eat.
all i want to do is read books and play the guitar (learn to play the guitar, that is.)
grace and peace
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