for a flood victim this much rain is scary. it's not supposed to be rainy like this in august. january, yes, but not august. my anxious mind and heart can't take much more. the sun peaked out for a few minutes today but it wasn't enough.
the flooding is supposed to continue in the area and, though i don't believe i am in any danger, it means that i can't turn on the TV (the one channel that i have) and i can't escape the panic that i feel on a nearly-continuous basis.
the last few days have taken a toll and i feel less like myself than ever. that's saying something. it causes me to believe that i will never get better, never put this behind me, never NOT be a victim. i'm so tired.
i hear the rain on the skylight as i type this and feel my heart racing to match the cacophony. it hurts.
i had errands to run today before work and i have more tomorrow. i think i'll try to get in bed early and pray for sleep or at least rest.
grace and peace
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