"if man could be crossed with a cat it would improve the man but it would deteriorate the cat." mark twain
i've been missing my sweet maeve these last few days. it's been in the 80s here in nashville and as a consequence winston, the overweight and under-motivated pug, has made it clear that he's not interested in long walks with me. he wants many short walks--the kind that take us only one or two blocks from the house. the kind that maeve used to take with us. she walked with us rain or shine. so many drivers, walkers, bike-riders would stop and ask about her, was she mine?, did she always walk with us?, did she think she was a dog?, did she think she was a person? i miss her.
my anxiety has been okay today because i was outside in the sun almost all day. it helps. the only real panic was when i heard someone at the door. i could tell that someone tried to turn the handle on the locked storm door. i held my breath and felt the initial light-headedness and pounding heart that comes with a panic attack. no knock!! i kept myself in check but it was a good half an hour before i worked up the nerve to open the front door to find a flier from a local church stuck in the door. really dodged a bullet there.
think i'm going to finish the book i'm reading and head to bed early (hopefully thanks to the benadryl i need to control my sneezing fits). i'm meeting my brother at early church service tomorrow and i usually mosey on into the late service so we'll see how i manage 9:00 a.m.
grace and peace
both yesterday and today i've seen snakes on my walks. yesterday a 2-foot long, live one in the middle of the road when i had winston with me. today a dead one 12-14 inches long on the side of the road (and i was nearly 2 miles from home--no quick getaway!) yet another reason not to live near a river!
my anxiety has been okay today because i was outside in the sun almost all day. it helps. the only real panic was when i heard someone at the door. i could tell that someone tried to turn the handle on the locked storm door. i held my breath and felt the initial light-headedness and pounding heart that comes with a panic attack. no knock!! i kept myself in check but it was a good half an hour before i worked up the nerve to open the front door to find a flier from a local church stuck in the door. really dodged a bullet there.
think i'm going to finish the book i'm reading and head to bed early (hopefully thanks to the benadryl i need to control my sneezing fits). i'm meeting my brother at early church service tomorrow and i usually mosey on into the late service so we'll see how i manage 9:00 a.m.
grace and peace
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