Wednesday, February 19, 2014

how is this not crazy?

was told that i needed to write today but i feel like it will make me worse somehow.  anxiety is through the roof.  can't really pinpoint why.  i guess that's the way anxiety works.
 
worried about all kinds of things:  death, kroger, insanity, fire, strangers being in my house when i'm not here, insanity, bankruptcy, did i mention insanity?
 
trying to constantly remind myself that spring is not far off and that with it comes fresh air, brown skin, bike rides, hikes and promise. 
 
spring come quickly!
 
grace and peace

Thursday, February 13, 2014

joy

posted 2 years ago on this date.  i feel the same today...

this week has been a constant reminder of the ups and downs we all encounter in these fragile, glorious lives we lead. 

monday 2/13 would have been my friend joy's 38th birthday.  she and i were inseparable through elementary school and jr. high.  we lost touch after high school but i never stopped thinking of her and never stopped loving her.  the news of her death hit me hard.  her birthday is always a hard day for me.  here's a picture of us in the summer of 1987.  we were 13.
i think this year it's been harder to think of her in light of whitney houston's death.  houston's concert was the first we attended together in 1986 or 87.  our friendship was full of music and concerts but whitney's was the first.

Friday, February 7, 2014

spring come quickly

i feel like i need to write tonight but i have nothing to say.  i'm exhausted after another week of very little sleep.  am looking forward to this weekend with no plans.
 
here it is 8:30 on friday night and i'm trying to decide if i  should just go to bed and tackle tomorrow with a little sleep, hopefully, under my belt.  wishing that i could hibernate until the cold is over and maybe then i would be prepared to face the spring. 
 
i'm still plugging away but am woefully behind on writing, guitar practice and exercise.  "behind" meaning that i am not participating in those things AT ALL right now.  oh spring, please come soon.
 
grace and peace