today is the 6th anniversary of the flood. the day that changed my life beyond compare. the day that i morphed into a jumpy, scared, fundamentally anxious ball of nerves.
today is worse in that daddy isn't here to comfort me. i haven't been able to blog about the loss of my dear, sweet father - he's been gone less than 3 weeks.
i'm 2 days away from opening my own business, the dream of my lifetime, and he's not here to share that day either. he was able to see the store and participate in the planning and the preparation. last may 2 he came to my work to visit and check on me. i faced today without him and it HURTS!
i'm tired and anxious and weepy. i have lots of last minute things to do tomorrow and i just want to hide. i want to stop, to shut down to hibernate.
i want my daddy!
