today is the day i've dreaded for days, weeks, months: the day i had to move the contents of my office to a storage unit. the bookstore is almost completely empty now. i have 3 days left on the lease and i'll have to work part of all 3 of those days to get everything done in time. i was blessed today with helpers (in fact, i had more than enough) but i still felt like i was alone.
the problem with not having a business partner, an investor, even a husband, is that i have to suffer these kinds of things - the big stuff - all alone. no matter how many people show up on a day like today, i still have to face it all on my own. i have to sit with all my decisions and all my sadness alone.
(full disclosure: my brother just called to check on me - he helped today. full, full disclosure: i prefer to be alone - i don't mourn that decision.)
anyway, i'm beyond tired and sad. i just want to pile up in bed with my pug and my book and not think for a while.
grace and peace.
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