these days i can't seem to write anything. i've just managed a handful of blog posts in the first 7 weeks of the year. BUT...i'm trying not to be too hard on myself. i need to write this blog for my sanity and i want to be writing on a fiction piece i've been working on for a while but i'm pretty worn out these days.
the store takes it out of me and my anxiety is very high! this week my therapist told me that i'm the highest functioning agoraphobic she's ever treated. i suppose that's something to be proud of(?)! i am an agoraphobic but i go to the store every day and i talk to strangers all day all the while somewhat terrified of being out of the house. i suppose i'm able to do it because i'm also somewhat terrified of being in the house. (i also have no choice.)
anyway, i'm really going to work on setting aside a few minutes a day to get myself back into the habit of writing. i know it helps. i don't know for sure what my reluctance is other than the general anxiety of recording some of my anxious thoughts on the blog. that, and my general laziness and procrastination when it comes to planning and doing any additional non-bookstore related work. (you should see the state of the house!)
grace and peace and writing
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