well, y'all, is this surreal or what? i'm having a hard time getting my mind around it. i've had mild symptoms for about a week now. my doctor's office is confident i have it and that i picked it up at my bookstore. i really only spoke with a doctor because i have asthma and i wanted to be sure that i had a new inhaler handy just in case. he called it in and CVS pharmacy mailed it to me. i'm now quarantined until at least april 7 - which is my birthday.
i'm glad i closed the store when i did. i've been closed since i left there on saturday the 14th. unfortunately i ran a few errands on that weekend, and early last week, to stock up on groceries, etc. i sure hope i didn't make anyone else sick.
i'm anxious about the store being closed and no money coming in. however, for some inexplicable reason, i'm only a little anxious. maybe it's that i'm sick. maybe it's that i can't do one single thing about it. maybe it's that i know that no matter what happens - whether i'm closed a month or whether i never open again - that somehow i will be fine. see, i've survived worse.
so many people are in my boat right now. i am confident that we will pull together and survive this. and there are so many folks who are very sick and dying and so many families who have already lost loved ones that my little bookstore and my chest pain and my shortness of breath seem inconsequential.
i'm angry that people still aren't taking it seriously. i'm angry that huge corporations are putting profits ahead of people. i'm angry that the federal government will bail out the corporations and that most of us will get a $1,200 check...in a few months. how will $1,200 pay for months of my closed store? how will $1,200 help a family who lost one or both incomes for weeks upon weeks. how will $1,200 help most people when it won't even cover one months rent?
ugh...i'm exhausted. take care of yourselves. wash your hands, keep your distance when you have to go out, stay home as much as you can.
grace and peace
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