even before the flood 3 straight days of rain (and markedly lower temperatures) sent me into a tailspin. unfortunately, this rain, and a high today only in the 60s, has sent me into, what can only be described as, a "major funk!"
i've been getting up at 5:00 a.m.(!) since friday for the morning shift with my grandmother at the rehab facility. i try to read, watch tennis and be decent company for her and yet all i seem to do is check the progress of the puddles in the courtyard below her 2nd story window.
"they" say that the flood here was a 100 year and/or a 500 year flood (i'm not sure if they ever decided for sure) and i am not really fearful that i (or nashville) will face another flood like it in my lifetime (i pray!) but that does not at all change the aggravating fact that i am now afraid of water (moving water at least, not swimming pools.) it's yet another fear that i have developed that, while logical under the circumstances, continues to baffle and upset me. i am uncomfortable being afraid of things that i never used to consider at all. i suppose i'm too hard on myself.
after all, we can't all be like maeve the cat, who at this moment is rolling around in a puddle on my patio. one of the few cats immune to a disdain for water.
i feel for those around the country who have been affected by irene, lee, all the other storms i've not heard of yet, wildfires, and other various and sundry "acts of God." i hope that their recovery is swift and that they are aided by people as generous as those who aided (and still aid) me.
i pray for...
grace and peace and clear skies
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