got some disturbing news this weekend that i can't stop mulling over: my neighbor directly across the street sold his house (if indeed it closes this week) for, wait for it..., $25,000 LESS than it appraised for. this isn't surprising but somehow just hearing that number really got to me. i've guessed that these houses won't sell for their pre-flood worth for five or more years but what if it's longer? when i think of all the of improvements i made and all the money i shelled out to make it livable/sellable i feel like perhaps it wasn't worth it. i can't get out and yet i don't know how to make peace with being here. i hate this house and i hate that damn river!
if i haven't mentioned it before i think it's worth mentioning now: someone is sneaking in here and leaving rubberbands of various sizes laying around. it's about to send me over the edge! i finally had to break down and ask my dad and brother since they have keys-they both deny doing it. i want to believe them and of course i know they aren't doing it but i cannot explain how these rubberbands are multiplying. i've talked to both maeve and winston about it and while i wouldn't put it past the cat to try and drive me crazy i know the fat, lazy pug isn't wasting his precious reserve of energy on the likes of a trick like that. i've turned the house upside down looking for a stash of rubberbands that the cat may have gotten into but the likes of which doesn't exist. i now look for rubberbands when i enter a room like i usually look for spiders upon flipping a light switch.
anxiety is for the birds, i'm safe nowhere and from nothing. rubberbands for cryin' out loud!
the flood was less than 2 years ago - give it a bit more time and the sales price will even up with the appraisal. i know, nothing but waiting. but it will get better.
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